I screamed at winter today. I was loading the baby into his car seat and got slapped in the face by wind. I yelled, "Not now Winter, I'm over you!". Just then an older lady walked by and started laughing. She knew what I was talking about.
Sitting down to write this post I YouTubed Tori Amos's "Winter" for a lil bit of inspiration:
"I run off where the drifts get deeper. Sleeping Beauty trips me with a frown. I hear her voice, you must learn to stand up for yourself cause I can't always be around."
I miss you Tori. You got me through some really deep stuff. I love the messages in your songs and how they made/make me feel. The voice, the piano, the violins... the power. I don't listen to you much now. It's difficult listening to some of the songs that got me through those times because the memories become raw again. After that initial memory flood it is nice to be able to see the growth and healing through these years.
"When you gonna make up your mind? When you gonna love you as much as I do? When you gonna make up your mind? Cause things are gonna change so fast."
One of the closest people in my life told me this is her song for me. Thank you. I get it. I get the magnitude. You are loved back. Completely.