Buzz

One of the parts I really liked about Kathy Freston's Quantum Wellness was her sharing that a lot of people with alcohol and drug addictions are addicted to the altered state of consciousness.  The feelings of what some may deem as the same feelings of enlightenment.  The problem is that since we are getting high from a substance, we come down.  Ugh, the dreaded come down.  Reading her interpretation of some people's addictions really resonated with me.  I was able to realize that getting wasted face wasn't just because of my bloodline, weaknesses, and habits. I wasn't using substances strictly as a way to numb myself, it was also a way to make me feel more too.  Not only would I feel more but I would have the liquid courage to express these emotions to my wasted face company.

Anyone who has drink, drank, drunk is bound to have felt that beautiful buzz that makes your heart pitter patter for whoever you are with.  There are no cares in the world.  You feel good, you look good, and you are smart enough to share those feelings with anyone who has ears.  Everything is a party.

Recently having a sobriety convo with my friend, who was getting to that blissful state before my very eyes, made me think of the way things have altered in my life since sobering up.  But not really just since I quit drinking, but since I started writing and learning to express myself and get an understanding of my emotions.

I am here to tell you firsthand there is a buzzed life after the booze party.

I seem to have a heightened sense of awareness.  But it's not just heightened, it's glorified.  When I am talking to people I can feel joy radiating from them and experience their inner beauty.  People are more upbeat.  Even when we are discussing something heavy there is still a lightness to the conversation.  I can hear happiness coming from them.  I am seeing and treating them as I am myself.

Since October people have started physically looking different.  I first noticed with my sister and mentioned it in this entry.  Since then it has happened with more frequency and intensity.  Everyone looks younger and softer.  Everyone has twinkles (that's an "l" not an "i", twinkies would hurt) in their eyes.  People seem in better shape.  Everyone is better looking.  Even seeing pictures, everyone looks better than I remember from the actual event.  I told one of my girlfriends that her brother had a very pleasant face and she was confused.  I told our guy friends that came over that they all looked taller and they were confused.  Hey, I'm confused.  But I like it.

Even though I've sobered up, I'm still getting a buzz.  But it's off you guys!  And with no hangover!  SCORE!